From the ages of 18 to 22, I was in a painful, abusive relationship. I was controlled, watched, manipulated, and punished for trying to be myself.
Four years after its demise, I still have anger. A part of me still wants emotional and psychological revenge.
Another part of me is peaceful and silent. I'm so happy to be where I am, and I know that all parts of my path had to happen in order for me to have arrived here.
Clarissa Pinkola-Estes writes that forgiveness is an act of creation. I see this in me. Each time a need to forgive arises, I recreate it. The need to forgive the other person. The need to forgive the girl I once was.
I wonder if I'll ever be complete in this process.